performing for the love of it

so today i just finished performing in devon feldmeth's midterm directing scene, from one of my absolute favorite plays, Brilliant Traces. and it was a joy. i mean, the play has heavy themes, and i know i didn't even begin to fully embrace every deep layer that's in it... but i got close, and we had a great run. there was one moment where the whole "the truth is in the text" stuff REALLY clicked in, where my pain became about the words, nothing in my life as sarah, just my words and my life as rosannah... and i got MAD. like, madness mad. and (my scene partner) trevor's heart broke in front of me, again because of the words... we were so committed!!! and the good work was only just beginning. thank you to devon for directing us so effortlessly into something so cool :). i may have graduated, but there's nothing wrong with going back and working with friends. it's awesome actually!

no one will ever see the piece again, i may never work with the brilliant and talented trevor or devon (i hope that Not to be the case, but still), and only a small room of 15 students witnessed it... how ethereal our work is! but i know that i can jump into that turbo-charge kind of energy, with work and commitment and understanding of text, and the more i do it the more confident i am.

and later tonight i have my acting class... i have a mock audition for a pilot, for a comedic lock-picking badass hyper-intelligent rogue character named melissa. she's AWESOME. but i missed last week and chad says it's a challenge. so we'll see how it goes. i'm just hanging at home, i'm going to practice that, then clean for a bit, then make some dinner, then head over. when i have a life so completely filled to the brim with busy-ness and errands and work and commitments, its weird to come down to a calmer day with more time i have control over... a little peace and quiet is cool, i can get used to this. i know i shouldn't, i love being busy, but this is refreshing.

so, i'm doing my art, i love it and i hope i'm always doing it and that's the big picture, the point to remember. like in jersey boys... it was always about the music. for us... it's always about the stories. and i'm more and more confident about marketing that to other people so they can Use my work to help bring Their art to life!!

so exciting. i'm on the brink of some awesome times, i can feel it.